Friday, November 20, 2009


Tonite I will get to see this beauty girl.. Im so happy and excited and I have seen her in years!! I love her so much, we grew up together! I always felt that I had to be an example to her and her sister.. We are more like cousins we are sister... I'm gonna take care of her and make her have three wonderful weeks!!

happy happy weekend!


Life needs to have a direction that will lead us to our destiny.. but what is our destiny?? Without a doubt I will say our dreams.. My realization make me think what my dreams are, where i wanna go. Lately I am in a "conform zone" I don't want to take risks and it is just for one reason: the fear of suffering..Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.
So I decide to list my dreams.. the first step to achieve your dreams.. is knowing them if you dont know them you will be lost always wandering what is your personal story or what is your purpose in your life! No matter how simple or complex your dream are...
“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
My dreams are:
1. Getting a career in BYU..
2. Going to Paris
3. Learning french
4. Having daughters
5. Dancing
6. Writing a book
7. Finding true love
8. Being a good student
9. Serve others
10. Having a shop with my mom
11. Getting married
12. Become a dancer
13. Be virtuous
14. Be an influence in this world
15. Change my life and by that changing the life of others.. change the world
16. Have honor
17. Surfing
18. Living in the beach
19. Going to south America before I get married
20. Be happy
21. Having a baby boy
22. Be a doctor
22. Be a good mom
23. Design clothes
24. Learn to knit and sew
25. Be honest with myself
26. Don't be afraid to changes
27. Going to Africa with my dad
28. Taking pictures around the world
29. Have enough money to help others
30. Adopt a child
31. Climb a mountain
32. Run a 5k
33. Live in at least 5 different countries
34. Own a house that will be my home
35. Getting old with my eternal companion
36. Having nephews and nices
37. Make a family tradition..
38. Having always a close relationship with GOD
I will keep updating my list by so far this are my dreams..
This is my destiny

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Not bad for a wednesday!!

I dunno whats going on with Wes... he has been acting weird lately (to be more specific since we kissed) he is still texting me and inviting me to come over to his place!
Who knows what he is thinking... he is not very expressive!
Tonight me and Justin went to the Jazz game we beat the raptors... i was fun~~ Justin is the guy who i met in Halloween.. since then we had hung out every week! Today he held my hand, we walked around downtown salt lake.. my heart was beating fast i was nervous and I don't know if it was obvious or not.. i try to hide it thou!
He held my hand all the way back to Provo.. we ate at Sonic
He offered me gum... deep inside i thought maybe he will kiss me but it was just a thought
He walked me to the door.. he hug me and i don't know how he kissed me in front of my door! It was sweet.. when i got home I had a big smile.. not working today was worthy!
I might like him but I don't wanna have big expectations about me and him.. but it is nice to be nervous and feel butterflies in my stomach again!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Special weekend.. full of blessings!

This weekend i got my patriarchal blessing! It was soooooooooooooooooo special! I could felt how blessed I am and how much God loves me!
I can't believe all the promises he has for me, he is so merciful and I can tell he loves me!
Life is good when you know that there is a purpose in life..and dreams can come true!
I'm reading The Alchemist!! it is a wonderful book and i can't stop reading it highly recommended it!!

I'm going to a jazz game this Wednesday.. I'm way excited!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Secret confession!

I have to tell you... he kissed me tonite and I dont know how to feel!!
It was nice but i dont know???
I like it but i feel that something was missing....
I guess I have to give it some time!
Next week I'm going out with Justin. He is cool and we might go to a Jazz game!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Friday.. just chilling

I didn't have to work tonite... I had been in a weird mood this two last days! I need to breath, pray, trust more in my self and don't let discourage take part of me! I was reading the scriptures and that make me feel much better.. Finally, I understood what HOPE is about.. I believe in hope, I believe in miracles, I believe in faith, I believe in charity, I believe in my self I believed in Jesus Christ! I have high and confident expectations that my future will be brighter if I believe!

On the other hand, my plans for this weekend are:
  • Taking pics of my mom's headbands and post them in this cute blog I made for sweet momma!
  • Going out with Wes.. Im kinda of getting tired of going out with him.. he is not expressive at all!!
  • Do homework
  • Preparing my primary class
  • Finally receiving my patriarchal blessing on Sunday
  • I'm craving for cake so probably I will end up baking one
So that's my weekend in 6 sentences..


Thursday, November 12, 2009

Monday beats thursday!

I'm so frustrated.. today is one of those days that everything seems to be so wrong! I lost my wallet and if I don't find it i will be in BIG troubles! My i pod is acting weird! I don't want to do anything!
Life is not good today!! I have to calm down and remember that days of frustration and sorrow are necessary. If we don't have them we will never know the feeling of joy and happiness.. so I'm grateful for days like this.. I'm still alive and tomorrow will be better day!

I'm just moody now!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Tuesdays always beat Mondays

Today i went to my orientation for the volunteering at the hospital.. people seems to be really nice there.. they took me a pic and i look stunning lol but seriously it was a really good picture.. this is the kind of pic that u don't mind to show everyone!
I walked around downtown the colors, the weather, the wind everything make me feel so good!
I had Salvadorian food for lunch! it was yummy!

I saw two cute guys on the bus!! I'm wearing a cute outfit and i talk with my mom

What else can i ask?? It was a lovely tuesday

Monday, November 9, 2009

Life lesson 1

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow"

This weekend was weird, don't take me wrong it was good just a little bit emotional! I went to the bijou market.. they have really cool stuff! I got inspired I'm gonna start selling my mom jewelry and headbands on Etsy.. She is so talented I'm proud of her!
On saturday I watched a movie with Wes dont know exactly what is going on there.. we haven't kiss but he seems to like me a lot he calls me all the time!
I was thinking on sunday in Daniel.. I saw some pictures on facebook and he look cute on most of them! I still kinda of missing him. I know i shouldn't do this but it was out of my control.. I cried just a little bit but I cried.
Then i found this quote and it makes me feel much better.. i have to stop worrying about the mistakes of the past, i did it and now it is time to let it go and just take the best of it. The present is a gift that why we call it present.. just live for today and hope for tomorrow things will be much better the next day !!

"The principle of living greatly included the capacity to face trouble with courage, disappointment with cheerfulness, and trial with humility". Thomas S. Monson


Living for others thats the key

I'm starting a new week.. I am excited today I got an email saying that I can start the volunteering in the hospital!
I really want to help others or feel that I am doing something for others!

"Only a life lived for others is worthy living"

I totally agree with this Einstein's quote.. service is the key of a happy life

Friday, November 6, 2009

Viva le week-end!!

I love Fridays! It means the end of the week time to rest and have fun! Today I started with the right foot.. a little baby was flirting with me on the bus he was cute and he made me smile, Wes is always waiting for me after class ( he used to run to his next class) , I had a wrap for lunch, and I just feel happy there is no reason why but I do feel good (maybe cuz its friday)!!

So my plans for this weekend are:
  • Hitting up the bijou market and a flea market
  • Going to a swing dance
  • Getting my patriarchal blessing (I'm so exciting =D I was waiting for this and finally tomorrow is the day)

Life is good!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Dateless life is over

Remember this!! This might sound funny but I'm officially back to the market.. After that email I felt so good, it is not that I don't feel anything for him but I finally understood that it is over. I'm still going out with Wes, things are going slow with him. We see each other often and he calsl me everyday sometimes twice or three times a day! He hasn't try to kiss me, I feel that he really wants to know me rather than just playing around.

Tonight I had a date with a guy that I meet in a Halloween party. He suppose to come to pick me up at sevenish what for me was around 7:30 but obviously for him was at 7:00pm. We almost canceled the date but at the end he pick me up at BYU. I was wearing a cute outfit but my make up by that time was history.

He was nice he asked me if I wanna stop by my apt. I say yes so I dropped my bag and putted some make up. I was ready! We ate Hawaiian food and gelato ( it was perfect i was craving for some good gelato).

He walked me to my door, he hugged me honestly it was weird (maybe I wasn't used to that anymore. I didn't date at all for 4 months and I dated Daniel for 6 months..)

It was a good day!! I'm so happy that finally I'm moving on!

pd: My cousin from Spain is coming to visit me at the end of this month.. Im way excited!


Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Second chances!!

I totally agree with this.. second chances should be a human right! As humans we always make mistakes! Sometimes giving ourselves a second chance is hard because we think we don't deserve them. We think that we deserve what we are living! But I tell myself and everybody out there.. WE DESERVE SECOND CHANCES! We should never give up in ourselves! We should keep trying and trying! For me is kind of hard saying this, lately i felt that I didn't deserve anything but I do!! I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be loved and love others.. I have the control in my life. One of the most amazing things that God has giving me is the opportunity of making my own destiny! I want to be better and make him proud of me! It is not easy cuz there is always things distracting me but I want to make my world and the world of others a place better!
People and to myself give ourselves:


I just found this quote from president Monson. This confirms what I said about second chances.. I love my faith

"On occasion we need to make a second effort - and a third effort, and a fourth effort, and as many degrees of effort as may be required to accomplish what we strive to achieve".


I found this website they have the cutest headbands ever! check it out!! You will find something cute!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Monday joy

I got sick or at least i think I'm sick!! Wes texted me this morning wondering why i didnt go to class he is sweet ( too innocent sometimes) but after all he has been pretty nice!! We haven't kiss yet.. I'm happy that we are taking sometime.. it is always good to know a person first before you get involved with them! I had a yummy lunch and a nice walk it was sunny the weather was great.. I feel gorgeous as I was walking on the street!
Today we celebrated "dia de los muertos" in Ecuador. I miss so bad "la colada morada y guaguas de pan"
Wes came to visit me he wants to make sure that I was feeling better.


Halloween weekend

This weekend was fun!!
I had to work on friday night (that sucked) anyways I need the money and we dressed up for work!
Work didn't mess up my friday tho. On Friday afternoon Wes and me went to play bowling and he made dinner for us. He took me to work. After work he texted me and we went to his apt and we watched a movie!
On saturday I was in a weird mood!! I didn't want to do anything but as soon as I got dressed up everything change.. I WAS READY TO PARTY ALL NITE!!

I danced all night long!! We ended up in Denny's talking and laughing.. remember this so I party with her all nite, she is really nice!! I'm so glad that he didn't keep texting me!

On sunday, I woke up to go to church. It is always nice to spend my sunday morning with kids I love them!! I talked with my mom I love her so much!! we always laugh and she always make me feel the smartest and prettiest girl in this world.
Later that night Wes came and picked me up! We watch the fireside together! It was nice I like his hugs (you know me I'm a hugger)