Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Walking and getting inspiration!

It is cold today! but I'm loving this weather.. pretty much it express how I am feeling today!
Yeah it is chill and cold and I wasn't feeling quite good this morning neither yesterday.. I have been thinking a lot! I figure out that...this doesnt feel right! it is time to start something new, learn what is important and what is not, time to value those who make a difference in your life, those who love you and care about you, time to dream, time to travel, time to get rid of those things that are bothering you, time to be happy.. it is time to learn, laugh, love, move on and grow!
I found a girl that I met in my freshman year and I figure out that no matter what the only that really matters are my dreams, my goals whatever they are!
I have to be more commited to something! I decided I'm going to apply for the PR program and I'm gonna graduated asap!
I don't want to get married not yet! I wanna travel, I want to gain knowledge, I wanna be passionated, I want to dance, dream, make my dreams come true but being realistic at the same time!
This weather is perfect to ponder!

Me...

Who Am I? What I want?? Where Am I going?
So let me tell you more about myself..
I'm Laura Nathalia Morales Villacres ( i know it is pretty long)
I'm obessed with Paris, I love chessy, I rely a lot on other people, I'm trying to find motivition inmyself, I'm a lover, sweet, dreamer.......
I was born and raised in Ecuador.. I have the most wonderful parents.. my mom is the most creative and talented women I know!
I have three brothers older than me, I'm the only girl so I can say my parents spoiled me a lot! I was a really sweet giirl, smart, I wear glasses since I was 5 I hated them I thought that pretty girls dont wear glasses til elementary school I have a friend really pretty and she wear glass so my idea of beuty and glasses change.
During my childhood my mom kept me busy, I took ballet classes, piano lessons, english classes, gymnastics, singing gosh I dont even know how I possible could do that, but I did it and I'm so grateful for that!
I also found one of my best friend we met when we were 9 or 10 I'm not sure!
During my early adolescence I move to 3 different high schools!
The first one I like it I was so responsible, smart and it life was kind of simple!
Then I moved to another high school that changed me a lot! I was a rebel!! I dated someone he was my first boyfriend, my first real kiss, I felt in love for the first time, I did crazy things in name of love, my heart was broken for the first time! My mom was kinda scared of how much I changed so she decided that it was time to go to a different high school.. i didn't like the idea at the beginning but I couldnt do much!
My third high school... I hated at the beginning after being in a pretty liberal school where we could do pretty much everything that we want the new high school was like being in jail! they were so many rules, and the girls didn't like me that much!
My first year in my new high school was hard, it was big adjustment! But suddenly I dont know how or when I felt in love with my new high school... I made so many good friends!
I was the president of my high school, I was still a rebel, I didn't like injustice, I was really creative and I was really involved with my high school.. during my last year I met again with my first love, my first we started dating again but we changed so it didn't work
I dated a guy, he loved me a lot the sad part is that I could'nt feel in love with him! He was really kind, sweet and he really cared about me... now I know that it was true love and I would wish that I could felt in love with him but life is not simple!
During my teenager's year I kept dancing, I knew that dancing would be a big part of my life! I met my best friends there! Sometimes I know I complained a lot about it, but I glad I did it and I'm glad my mom was there supporting me!
After graduation I dedicate myself to dance, everything that i did was dance! After graduating from my school of arts, my parents decided that I was time to take a new direction so they sent me to Utah to learn English
I hate the idea of leaving everything there especially because I was dating someone, I knew that I could easily feel in love with him...
Leaving was hard for me, I felt that I wasnt prepare to start a new life on my own, I life with my family my whole life, I had always my mom by side!
I cried a lot, I missed everything! At the beginning I thought that I would be here just for 8 months and now I have been living here for TWO YEARS!!
I'm still confused about how I feel about being here... sometimes I loved it and sometimes I hated it!
Without doubt being here has changed me a lot! I'm more mature, I trying to be more independant, responsible.. finding a path is still a mystery for me.... I'm trying to figure out exactly what I want to study!
My first year of college was hard I had a lot of pressure on me, I got an scholarship and I didn't do it that well... I was depressed and make new friends was hard even know finding new ones can be hard!
Then I felt in love... I made so many plans, my life spinned around him, I was really in love, we talked about marriage and for the time in my life I felt that I wanted to spend my life with that guy! Our story was complicated, as you all know we didn't get married, we aren't together, we are not even friends! He broke my heart in tiny pieces, it was hard to move on harder than the first time I felt in love. This episode of my life was hard and again I was depressed! I learn lot I'm glad that we dated because I know that I become a better person!
Being here also has brought me closer to the God.. being alone had made me thing that the only one who is always here with me is him... I have a testimony now! I wish I could be more constant in church things but I'm trying!
I met my two best friends! I love them
I started to work something that I'm sure I won't do it if I were at home.. I'm trying to be smarter with my money, working has taught me the importance of earn my own money, money doesn't grow in trees, now I wonder how my parents were able to provide us.. I'm really blessed I had always have a place,food, education and nice clothes!
My story have finished yet...
I still don't know where it will take me
I'm not even sure how this story will end
I just want to be happy
find true love
have a family

Friday, March 26, 2010

Gosh I really hate this! All of them seemed to be really into me and then after few weeks all that just dissapear...
I dont want to keep playing I want to be an stable relationship that's it!
On the other hand, I have Matias my argentine guy.. he is so sweet he calls all the time, even when I'm a drama queen, he send me a packet the other HOW SWEET AND COOL is that!
Hopefully I will go to Argentina on August I can't wait to kiss him and have fun with him

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Je veux pleurer
I feeling so overwhelmed
alone
lost
disappointed
anxious

0_O

Monday, March 22, 2010

Poor toe


On saturday I was dancing in my room when I dont know how and I cant even explain I hit my toe so hard that I was about to cry.
I forgot about til Sunday after church I took off my heals and my toe was so swollen and bruised!!
I'm in pain but I'm trying to be optimist and hopefully it is not broken!
Poor toe I can feel your pain!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Le bisou

This couple days have been wonderful! I had a lot to do A LOT! but I meet this guy I can't take him out of my mind..He is so kind, he really likes Anabella, I love his smile!
So, this weekend it was way fun
  • Friday I went out to my friends, we went to a lame party so I leave them Jacob and my friends picked me up. We went to sparks!
  • Saturday.. I spend almost all day with Jacob. We went to my dance concert, lunch, snowboarding, dinner, and we chill at my apt. It was my bro b-day!! =) I lost my phone on the mountain!! =( (but you know what was really nice, Jacob was willing to go back to the mountain and search.. I was the one who gave up)
  • Sunday... I making a choir with the primary kids for Easter. I watched a movie with Jacob we cuddle, my heart was beating fast!
  • Monday.. I thought it would be a horrible day but it turned all the way around! I had such a good day. I found my phone I just have to pick it up, I went running with Jacob and I really had a good time, we played with Anabella and finally but not last we kissed for the first time!
  • Tuesday... I know Daniel is dating someone in Peru and I'm actually happy for him! I wish him the best not hard feeling anymore. I have a lot to do today but so exciting about everything. I hopefully will see Jacob today if not I'm going salsa dancing tonight!
Life is ridiculous good!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Little things in life

Today is finally Friday.. heck yes! I'm so exited for the upcoming events.
Tonight I'm going to see the BYU dance emsamble! I really miss going to the theater back home that was something that I did frequently. But here with all things that I have to do time has become short and lets be honest before I was complaining all the time that there is nothing going on in art performance at BYU but winter semester has shut my mouth.. THERE A LOT GOING ON!
Tomorrow I'm going snowboarding with a guy that so far has made a good impression on me!
I'm happy it sunny outside, we have led this sunday so officially the spring will be here!
Talking about little thing talking with that peruvian woman this morning make me happy, she was so humble and kind!

Happy weekend


talking about facebook... i haven't opened since yesterday! I'm so proud of myself lets see if we can keep that up!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I don't remember who introduced me to the blogging world but a day like to day a year ago I published my first post!
I'm so glad I did..! this blog is my journey throught this life!
I decided not to use Facebook for the rest of this week! not even at work!!!
I'm facebookoholic!!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Que vivan las mujeres que se atreven a vivir a VIVIR!!

New Chapters


i wish I could have this view more often! Ecuadorian balcony Quito-Ecuador! summer 2008

Chapter 1: Last weekend

It was awkward, but in way or other I was expecting that. I was kinda of prepare and the girl's attitude didn't bother me at all! The party was still cool. Dallin went with me, it was funny cuz we were the first ones to get there! He played the piano for me but a second I really wanted to hug him but I was able to control myself.
On saturday I went lunch with Dallin, it was nice. I'm not sure if he really likes me but there is kinda a connection between us. We know each other for almost 2 years, i just don't know if we are ready to take it to next level. Life can be so unpredictable
I went to the movies, we watched invictus and my spirit and my soul have hungry of greatness.
Sunday was as usual, church, my kids, but wait something exciting happened I meet a guy through my friends. I think he is way cute!

Chapter 2: Current week!

I add the guy on facebook, we have being talking this two last days. He asked me my number and we are going snowboarding this saturday! First date, I'm wait excited!
One of five women wont get married!! scary
I think I lost a friend, we haven't talk in weeks! Im so sad that things ended up like that.
Matias called me yesterday! We have a weird relationship, I checked my email and it seems he was right, we know each other since 2006.. it seems like it about time to go to Argentina
Financial problems are worrying me!
I feel happy the spring is coming!
I want to talk more with God, become his friend!
I have a lot to do, I'm behind with school!

“How do geese know when to fly to the sun? Who tells them the seasons? How do we, humans know when it is time to move on? As with the migrant birds, so surely with us, there is a voice within if only we would listen to it, that tells us certainly when to go forth into the unknown.”

Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

the joys of a woman

I'm so grateful for being a woman! For having the chance of getting an education and dreaming changing this world! and someday becoming a mother
I'm grateful for my mother, she is exactly the person I want to be when I grew up! It such a great feeling knowing that I can talk to her always about everything even those things that I dont want to talk with anyone else not even myself
I'm grateful for my grandma! Her strength, love and compassion for other is unbelievable!
I'm grateful for my aunts! For their wonderful examples, and their words of love and hope!
I'm grateful for my girl cousins! It is nice to know that everything I saw them I still feel that powerful connection between us!
I'm grateful for my girl friends, for their support, their love, and all the happiness they bring to my life!
I'm grateful for all great women around the world, for their willingness to sacrifice themselves for others!
HORRAY FOR WOMEN!

“Woman is a miracle of divine contradictions”

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Invictus


It matters not how strait the gate,How charged with punishments the scroll,I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul!
I JUST FELT IN LOVE WITH THIS MOVIE!




Friday, March 5, 2010

Weekend

What amazing thing is having friends!! I so grateful. After talking with my good friend Cacey, I feel much better, it is nice to know that he will be by my side supporting and he make me realize that no matter what people say.. I should not take a sh.t out of it.. I know who I am and thats what matter and the rest is just crap!
Real friends are by your side no matter what!
This weekend will be interesting..
  • Cindy's party
  • Lunch with Dallin
  • Snowboarding
  • Homework
  • Church

Thursday, March 4, 2010

All what I needed is dance.. I feel so much better today! I will post a video and photos soon!
Dancing makes me happy!!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Moody!

In three words..
I am mad
I miss mom
I want food
Day is rainy
I danced horribly
I want home
Too much stress
breath breath breath

.Not a good day
I need a break!!


Monday, March 1, 2010

New giveaway!

Remember Christa from Je m'apelles Christa, she is throwing another great giveaway!!
I love her blog and her giveaways
for bon chance enter here!!
do it now the bon chance ends tonite..