La Mignonne

2010-12-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

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I work at 8

2010-09-23T01:48:00.003-06:00

I'm tired but somehow i feel it is for the right reason. My room is a mess I seriously need to clean it. I'm busy all the time and now everything worries me. Money, getting my 20 hours at work, homework, sleeping.. I feel that I becoming someone else. This is not bad the new me is more responsible but still I have my personal issues.

But let me tell you a secret. I do really miss high school days where nothing more than school and dancing were really important. I miss having someone to talk with, le soleil, mes amis, mon vie.

When we grow up definitely we leave some things in the road..

I'm tired I have to work at 8. I should better go to bed

Best friends photo-shoot!

2010-09-17T00:10:00.004-06:00

During the summer me and my best friend had a photo-shoot. It was really fun and as you all know i love pictures so I had a blast.. here are some of the pics that we took

Lately..

2010-09-13T01:48:00.002-06:00

I saw my ex boyfriend.. he goes latin dancing now. I danced with him
I supposedly got a boyfriend.. two days later I broke up with him! We barely talked!
I went to the Lagoon :) gosh I'm in love with roller coasters!
I decide to date John... he is busy all the time! We barely see each other. I don't even know if we are still dating
I haven't go to church in a while.. that makes me feel sad! I need to fix this
I have been thinking if someday I will make it or not!
I started classes.. I'm excited
I being listening John Mayer all the time
I being thinking in someone that I should not be.
I miss my family and friends!
I can wait to graduate and get a real job
I want to find my soul mate.
I being thinking in dancing and how much I missed it
New ways of loosing weight!

Battle Studies

2010-09-03T01:36:00.004-06:00

If I liked John Mayer before, I'm in love with him now. Seriously what an amazing concert! The best thing is that it didn't cost me a penny! My friend Sean invited us to go with him and he got us really good tickets!

I really love her new stuff..

This song just makes me thing in New York.. seriously I will like to be back so bad!! But sooner or later I'm gonna be rocking NYC!!

Wednesday!!!

2010-09-03T01:12:00.005-06:00

From now on this semester I'm going to SLC every wednesday. To be honest it is a pain in the butt but on the other hand it is nice just to take the bus relax and actually going to the city. I really loves cities, definitely towns are not my thing. I was born in the Ecuador's capital so I'm used to people walking on the streets, traffic, public transportation and all that stuff.
I'm taking a chemistry class, by the way I'm a little nervous but optimistic at the same time!
Also a nice thing about it is that I'm gonna see my bestie. Since my class ends at 10 and there is no bus back to Provo I have to stay at here apt.

I'm excited for wednesdays now!!!

A model

2010-07-28T16:34:00.005-06:00

Yesterday my friend Scott had a n overnight flash camp for photographers. He ask me if I wanna model for them.. It was such a cool experience especially I got the chance to have take dance pictures.

We even kinda do engagement pic.. obviously they were fake but it was fun to pose with a guy.. As soon I get the pics I will post them..

A place call "My comfort zone"

2010-07-22T09:42:00.003-06:00

I sat here next to myself, sat with what is well-known for me. I being thinking of that stage in life where we settle in our comfort zone. I was never the type of person I was always out of my shell. Lately thou i feel that I'm approaching there... but to be honest "my comfort zone" scares me.
For me my comfort zone just means limitations that we impose to ourselves. It seems like growing up get us closer to our comfort zone because in some point we stop believing that the impossible can be possible.
I don't want to stay there with the well-known for me.
I want to explore, learn, believe and try!
I want to grow up but I want to leave my comfort zone!
Bye, Ciao, Au revoir, Chao comfort zone

I'm back

2010-07-16T15:09:00.002-06:00

I've been gone for a while but finally I'm back. I'm having a lot of fun this summer. There is a lot of things that I went through most of them good.
I went to California with one of my friends. We spend a week in the Orange county, finally i renewed my passport, we went shopping til we drop. I meet a great photographer and we did a mini photo shoot.
I met a lot of new friends and really happy about it
I went to that wedding and I notice that finally FINALLY he is out of my life and I dont have to say his name ever again! I GOT OVER IT!
The sad part of my summer is those horrible headaches that I have lately. They are really painful and there is days that I cant sleep at all. My guess is that my headaches are related to a toothache... I think that i have a cavity or something, not cool not cool at all!
Summer is great so far!
I promise I will keep you more update!

Friends

2010-07-11T23:35:00.002-06:00

I miss them so much

back on the day

2010-06-04T12:29:00.001-06:00

Abril in my life!

2010-05-27T14:56:00.004-06:00

As all you know my friend Abril has been staying with me for the last month pretty much.
We have a blast together!! I'm so grateful for her friendship and her support.
This whole time that she's been here I had to work 8 hours a day.. by the time I get home she has prepared dinner already, how sweet is that!! Seriously I couldn't been more blessed, she is really my best friend!
She knows me so well, she know how I am feeling even we I don't tell her.
We can talk about anything and everything
I truly love my bestie.. she is definitely a big blessing in my life

Glee Lover

2010-05-26T14:07:00.003-06:00

It's official I felt in love with glee

2010-05-24T16:03:00.000-06:00

Should I accept his offer and go to Boston and NEW YORK!!!??

Dilemma

2010-05-24T13:24:00.001-06:00

Should I go to that wedding or not??

I wanna see a shooting start!

2010-05-24T13:14:00.004-06:00

This weekend was wild.. Me and my friends decided to go to the hot springs in Spanish Fork at midnight on saturday.. it took us forever to get there but we had such a good time!
At the beginning was quite dramatic there was a lot of drunk people, doing stupid things
I'm glad my mom raise in a way that I know my limits
for sure those guys were out of their minds
as soon they left we could relax!
I hadn't seen the sky like that in a while. It was so bright and full of stars.. !
I couldn't see a shooting start
but
it was still great
I'm grateful for all that beauty!

Little monkeys besties!!

2010-05-14T22:07:00.004-06:00

I'm having a great time with my best friend here... she seriously puts me in such a good mood no matter what.. So the other day as always we were fooling around so this is what can happen when you leave us in a park in a sunny day and a camera!!

The pizza pie

2010-05-14T09:40:00.004-06:00

My bestie Abril and Me

(I love that girl)
If you end up in SLC for some reason you should and i mean you MUST go to The pizza pie!!

They have the best pizza I ever tried!!

The price is not too bad .. I got full with one piece yeah they are ginormous.

I cant wait to hit that place again!

One week with April in May

2010-05-06T15:57:00.005-06:00

My last poem!

2010-04-29T18:29:00.005-06:00

Todo empieza al reves
la primavera nevo
dulce comienzo
ella ojos grandes
gotas de nostalgia
caen despacio, en silencio
golpean el suelo

El invierno la persigue
obscuro recuerdo
le dejo seca amargada y un CAP

No sabe que rumbo tomar
todos los caminos no conducen a lo conocido
la brujula se le ha perdido
El viaje al sur parece estar difuso

No logra ver el faro
El barco se le hunde
quiere nadar deseperandame a lo orilla
olas la abaten la destrozan

Ta temblando y no de frio
Maldito miedo la ha invadido
Se reusa volver al puerto

Su nombre es planta
Victoriosa laurel
esta derrotada
No quiere hacer la dichosa llamada

Una vez mas, respira
Peru ha cambiado su vida
no ha sido nada placentero
la obscura sensacion
llora
camina despacio
perdida
rota
desesperada de rodillas

Se quedado sin recursos
sin amigos
sin familia
esperando al de arriba
piensa
se arrodilla
espera que el sol ilumine
por ultima vez ruega quedarse
quiere estar en la penultima letra

Memo to my future hubby

2010-04-29T18:26:00.001-06:00

Dear future hubby:

I don't know you yet but I would like to ask you a big big big favor! Plz let's work out together. I strongly dislike those couples that don't even care how they look.. not because we will be married we will gain tons of weight
Let's be healthy plzzzzzzzz
I promise I will be in shape too!

Love,
Laura

So true!

2010-04-29T18:21:00.002-06:00

If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

Promptings, ideas and conclusions

2010-04-27T17:37:00.002-06:00

I had kinda of hard time lately but this time has been so good to me. I just figured out so many things that seriously I feel like I grew up a lot.

First, I so grateful for my job. This spring I'm able to work full time what means extra money, savings and plane ticket.

Second, I have the most wonderful, caring, loving, supportive mother in this world. She is my rock.

Third, I have an awesome family

Forth, I'm healthy.. THAT'S A HUGE BLESSING!

Fifth, I know what I want... sooner or later I will get it

Sixth, I'm here for a reason and I'm learning a lot!

I have been pondered about life and I realized that there will be always someone in better conditions than me but also there will be always someone in worst conditions than me. I can always help someone who is in more need than me!

il pleut et je vais pleurer

2010-04-21T17:27:00.005-06:00

I'm just going through this emotional episode in my life... I seriously don't know what to expect!
Lately it seems like my friends just left me maybe it is me i don't know
There has been so many times that I wanted to cry but crying alone is not helpful, it doesn't heal..
I know a lot of things that has happen are my fault, I seriously want to do better!
On the other hand being at BYU drives me crazy, don't take me wrong it is great school.. but see all those marriage couples sometimes it makes me sick so time... I hate when people is telling me you are 22 you should be marriage by now you are in BYU... yes I'm in BYU and YES I want to married and Yes I will love to have a family but guess what people?? I haven't found the guy yet. I hate when they say I'm too picky.. yes I do have my standards but is that a bad thing???? I dont want a charming prince. I know that I'm not the princess waiting to be rescued... I'm just LAURA.. the girl with a humble heart, the girl who likes to hold the door for others, the girls who always says thank you to the bus driver, the girl who enjoys seen little kids playing, the girl who calls her mom for counsel, the girl who likes to wear dresses, the girl who will give you a smile even in those days when she is deeply sad, the girl who felt in love so bad that was hurted so bad as well, im the girl who forgives easily, I'm the girl with the cute dog, I'm the girl who tries to write poetry, the girls who dances...
I Know im not perfect I'm forgetful, messy, disorganizate, too dreamy... but overall I want to be better, I have a pure heart, I sure I know how to love!
So now It is raining and I'm gonna cry...

Update Audition

2010-04-14T22:27:00.004-06:00

I talked with my teacher (she was part of the judges)
... they said they were impressed by me... I almost almost made it!!
She said they love my energy, my leg extensions... she told me to stick around and try next year...
this makes decide that I'm gonna do a minor in Modern Dance :)!!

I am missing my friends

2010-04-14T22:27:00.002-06:00

I never thought how important are friends in life ( i took them for granted).. now that I'm here I realize that they do life more exciting and even in those moments of disappointment and sorrow they make me feel better.!!!
I would love to find a bestie because now i feel like no one is by side standing up for me
FRIENDS I MISS YOU!

Try outs

2010-04-07T20:17:00.002-06:00

Today I went to dance audition, I didn't make it but I'm glad I went. I learn so much about myself, I learn that if I push myself the extra mile things will work much better!! I learn that I'm capable I just need more practice and dedication, I learn that dance is challenging and I love it!! I'm grateful for my talents and I'm gonna keep working on them!!

Life is for dreamers, dancers, artists, rebels, believers at least the life that I want!!

General Conference

2010-04-04T16:47:00.000-06:00

I love those promptings that inspire you to be better, to follow your savoir and to be more Christ-like ♥ I'm glad to be part of something greater than myself. I'm grateful for my mom, my dad, my grandma, my brothers, my family and all the beauties, opportunities and blessings in this life!!

Walking and getting inspiration!

2010-03-31T13:01:00.002-06:00

It is cold today! but I'm loving this weather.. pretty much it express how I am feeling today!
Yeah it is chill and cold and I wasn't feeling quite good this morning neither yesterday.. I have been thinking a lot! I figure out that...this doesnt feel right! it is time to start something new, learn what is important and what is not, time to value those who make a difference in your life, those who love you and care about you, time to dream, time to travel, time to get rid of those things that are bothering you, time to be happy.. it is time to learn, laugh, love, move on and grow!
I found a girl that I met in my freshman year and I figure out that no matter what the only that really matters are my dreams, my goals whatever they are!
I have to be more commited to something! I decided I'm going to apply for the PR program and I'm gonna graduated asap!
I don't want to get married not yet! I wanna travel, I want to gain knowledge, I wanna be passionated, I want to dance, dream, make my dreams come true but being realistic at the same time!
This weather is perfect to ponder!

Me...

2010-03-31T01:53:00.004-06:00

Who Am I? What I want?? Where Am I going?
So let me tell you more about myself..
I'm Laura Nathalia Morales Villacres ( i know it is pretty long)
I'm obessed with Paris, I love chessy, I rely a lot on other people, I'm trying to find motivition inmyself, I'm a lover, sweet, dreamer.......
I was born and raised in Ecuador.. I have the most wonderful parents.. my mom is the most creative and talented women I know!
I have three brothers older than me, I'm the only girl so I can say my parents spoiled me a lot! I was a really sweet giirl, smart, I wear glasses since I was 5 I hated them I thought that pretty girls dont wear glasses til elementary school I have a friend really pretty and she wear glass so my idea of beuty and glasses change.
During my childhood my mom kept me busy, I took ballet classes, piano lessons, english classes, gymnastics, singing gosh I dont even know how I possible could do that, but I did it and I'm so grateful for that!
I also found one of my best friend we met when we were 9 or 10 I'm not sure!
During my early adolescence I move to 3 different high schools!
The first one I like it I was so responsible, smart and it life was kind of simple!
Then I moved to another high school that changed me a lot! I was a rebel!! I dated someone he was my first boyfriend, my first real kiss, I felt in love for the first time, I did crazy things in name of love, my heart was broken for the first time! My mom was kinda scared of how much I changed so she decided that it was time to go to a different high school.. i didn't like the idea at the beginning but I couldnt do much!
My third high school... I hated at the beginning after being in a pretty liberal school where we could do pretty much everything that we want the new high school was like being in jail! they were so many rules, and the girls didn't like me that much!
My first year in my new high school was hard, it was big adjustment! But suddenly I dont know how or when I felt in love with my new high school... I made so many good friends!
I was the president of my high school, I was still a rebel, I didn't like injustice, I was really creative and I was really involved with my high school.. during my last year I met again with my first love, my first we started dating again but we changed so it didn't work
I dated a guy, he loved me a lot the sad part is that I could'nt feel in love with him! He was really kind, sweet and he really cared about me... now I know that it was true love and I would wish that I could felt in love with him but life is not simple!
During my teenager's year I kept dancing, I knew that dancing would be a big part of my life! I met my best friends there! Sometimes I know I complained a lot about it, but I glad I did it and I'm glad my mom was there supporting me!
After graduation I dedicate myself to dance, everything that i did was dance! After graduating from my school of arts, my parents decided that I was time to take a new direction so they sent me to Utah to learn English
I hate the idea of leaving everything there especially because I was dating someone, I knew that I could easily feel in love with him...
Leaving was hard for me, I felt that I wasnt prepare to start a new life on my own, I life with my family my whole life, I had always my mom by side!
I cried a lot, I missed everything! At the beginning I thought that I would be here just for 8 months and now I have been living here for TWO YEARS!!
I'm still confused about how I feel about being here... sometimes I loved it and sometimes I hated it!
Without doubt being here has changed me a lot! I'm more mature, I trying to be more independant, responsible.. finding a path is still a mystery for me.... I'm trying to figure out exactly what I want to study!
My first year of college was hard I had a lot of pressure on me, I got an scholarship and I didn't do it that well... I was depressed and make new friends was hard even know finding new ones can be hard!
Then I felt in love... I made so many plans, my life spinned around him, I was really in love, we talked about marriage and for the time in my life I felt that I wanted to spend my life with that guy! Our story was complicated, as you all know we didn't get married, we aren't together, we are not even friends! He broke my heart in tiny pieces, it was hard to move on harder than the first time I felt in love. This episode of my life was hard and again I was depressed! I learn lot I'm glad that we dated because I know that I become a better person!
Being here also has brought me closer to the God.. being alone had made me thing that the only one who is always here with me is him... I have a testimony now! I wish I could be more constant in church things but I'm trying!
I met my two best friends! I love them
I started to work something that I'm sure I won't do it if I were at home.. I'm trying to be smarter with my money, working has taught me the importance of earn my own money, money doesn't grow in trees, now I wonder how my parents were able to provide us.. I'm really blessed I had always have a place,food, education and nice clothes!
My story have finished yet...
I still don't know where it will take me
I'm not even sure how this story will end
I just want to be happy
find true love
have a family

2010-03-26T21:15:00.001-06:00

Gosh I really hate this! All of them seemed to be really into me and then after few weeks all that just dissapear...

I dont want to keep playing I want to be an stable relationship that's it!

On the other hand, I have Matias my argentine guy.. he is so sweet he calls all the time, even when I'm a drama queen, he send me a packet the other HOW SWEET AND COOL is that!

Hopefully I will go to Argentina on August I can't wait to kiss him and have fun with him

2010-03-23T15:55:00.002-06:00

Je veux pleurer
I feeling so overwhelmed
alone
lost
disappointed
anxious

0_O

Poor toe

2010-03-22T15:18:00.002-06:00

On saturday I was dancing in my room when I dont know how and I cant even explain I hit my toe so hard that I was about to cry.
I forgot about til Sunday after church I took off my heals and my toe was so swollen and bruised!!
I'm in pain but I'm trying to be optimist and hopefully it is not broken!
Poor toe I can feel your pain!

Le bisou

2010-03-16T12:54:00.002-06:00

This couple days have been wonderful! I had a lot to do A LOT! but I meet this guy I can't take him out of my mind..He is so kind, he really likes Anabella, I love his smile!
So, this weekend it was way fun

Friday I went out to my friends, we went to a lame party so I leave them Jacob and my friends picked me up. We went to sparks!
Saturday.. I spend almost all day with Jacob. We went to my dance concert, lunch, snowboarding, dinner, and we chill at my apt. It was my bro b-day!! =) I lost my phone on the mountain!! =( (but you know what was really nice, Jacob was willing to go back to the mountain and search.. I was the one who gave up)
Sunday... I making a choir with the primary kids for Easter. I watched a movie with Jacob we cuddle, my heart was beating fast!
Monday.. I thought it would be a horrible day but it turned all the way around! I had such a good day. I found my phone I just have to pick it up, I went running with Jacob and I really had a good time, we played with Anabella and finally but not last we kissed for the first time!
Tuesday... I know Daniel is dating someone in Peru and I'm actually happy for him! I wish him the best not hard feeling anymore. I have a lot to do today but so exciting about everything. I hopefully will see Jacob today if not I'm going salsa dancing tonight!

Life is ridiculous good!

Little things in life

2010-03-12T10:48:00.002-07:00

Today is finally Friday.. heck yes! I'm so exited for the upcoming events.
Tonight I'm going to see the BYU dance emsamble! I really miss going to the theater back home that was something that I did frequently. But here with all things that I have to do time has become short and lets be honest before I was complaining all the time that there is nothing going on in art performance at BYU but winter semester has shut my mouth.. THERE A LOT GOING ON!
Tomorrow I'm going snowboarding with a guy that so far has made a good impression on me!
I'm happy it sunny outside, we have led this sunday so officially the spring will be here!
Talking about little thing talking with that peruvian woman this morning make me happy, she was so humble and kind!

Happy weekend

talking about facebook... i haven't opened since yesterday! I'm so proud of myself lets see if we can keep that up!

2010-03-11T19:51:00.002-07:00

I don't remember who introduced me to the blogging world but a day like to day a year ago I published my first post!

I'm so glad I did..! this blog is my journey throught this life!

2010-03-11T19:47:00.004-07:00

I decided not to use Facebook for the rest of this week! not even at work!!!

I'm facebookoholic!!

Que vivan las mujeres que se atreven a vivir a VIVIR!!

2010-03-10T15:45:00.000-07:00

New Chapters

2010-03-10T14:36:00.007-07:00

i wish I could have this view more often! Ecuadorian balcony Quito-Ecuador! summer 2008

Chapter 1: Last weekend
It was awkward, but in way or other I was expecting that. I was kinda of prepare and the girl's attitude didn't bother me at all! The party was still cool. Dallin went with me, it was funny cuz we were the first ones to get there! He played the piano for me but a second I really wanted to hug him but I was able to control myself.
On saturday I went lunch with Dallin, it was nice. I'm not sure if he really likes me but there is kinda a connection between us. We know each other for almost 2 years, i just don't know if we are ready to take it to next level. Life can be so unpredictable
I went to the movies, we watched invictus and my spirit and my soul have hungry of greatness.
Sunday was as usual, church, my kids, but wait something exciting happened I meet a guy through my friends. I think he is way cute!

Chapter 2: Current week!
I add the guy on facebook, we have being talking this two last days. He asked me my number and we are going snowboarding this saturday! First date, I'm wait excited!
One of five women wont get married!! scary
I think I lost a friend, we haven't talk in weeks! Im so sad that things ended up like that.
Matias called me yesterday! We have a weird relationship, I checked my email and it seems he was right, we know each other since 2006.. it seems like it about time to go to Argentina
Financial problems are worrying me!
I feel happy the spring is coming!
I want to talk more with God, become his friend!
I have a lot to do, I'm behind with school!

“How do geese know when to fly to the sun? Who tells them the seasons? How do we, humans know when it is time to move on? As with the migrant birds, so surely with us, there is a voice within if only we would listen to it, that tells us certainly when to go forth into the unknown.”

Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

the joys of a woman

2010-03-09T19:07:00.007-07:00

I'm so grateful for being a woman! For having the chance of getting an education and dreaming changing this world! and someday becoming a mother
I'm grateful for my mother, she is exactly the person I want to be when I grew up! It such a great feeling knowing that I can talk to her always about everything even those things that I dont want to talk with anyone else not even myself
I'm grateful for my grandma! Her strength, love and compassion for other is unbelievable!
I'm grateful for my aunts! For their wonderful examples, and their words of love and hope!
I'm grateful for my girl cousins! It is nice to know that everything I saw them I still feel that powerful connection between us!
I'm grateful for my girl friends, for their support, their love, and all the happiness they bring to my life!

I'm grateful for all great women around the world, for their willingness to sacrifice themselves for others!

HORRAY FOR WOMEN!

“Woman is a miracle of divine contradictions”

Invictus

2010-03-07T02:25:00.002-07:00

It matters not how strait the gate,How charged with punishments the scroll,I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul!

I JUST FELT IN LOVE WITH THIS MOVIE!

Weekend

2010-03-05T17:54:00.001-07:00

What amazing thing is having friends!! I so grateful. After talking with my good friend Cacey, I feel much better, it is nice to know that he will be by my side supporting and he make me realize that no matter what people say.. I should not take a sh.t out of it.. I know who I am and thats what matter and the rest is just crap!
Real friends are by your side no matter what!
This weekend will be interesting..

Cindy's party
Lunch with Dallin
Snowboarding
Homework
Church

2010-03-04T15:04:00.001-07:00

All what I needed is dance.. I feel so much better today! I will post a video and photos soon!
Dancing makes me happy!!

Moody!

2010-03-03T15:30:00.004-07:00

In three words..

I am mad
I miss mom
I want food
Day is rainy
I danced horribly
I want home
Too much stress
breath breath breath

.Not a good day
I need a break!!

New giveaway!

2010-03-01T20:59:00.005-07:00

Remember Christa from Je m'apelles Christa, she is throwing another great giveaway!!

I love her blog and her giveaways

for bon chance enter here!!

do it now the bon chance ends tonite..

Snowboarding!

2010-02-28T22:45:00.003-07:00

The weekend was fun and painful!! I went snowboarding with my bros and friends. I was doing it so good. My first time snowboarding was horrible I hate it, Mario was teaching me, he was really patient cuz I was complaining a lot! This time, my second time I told my brother and my bestie to leave me in the first stop that I will be fine! So, I was there by myself in that huge mountain at sundance, I was really scared but somehow I figured out and I was able to snowboard like a pro... I was so proud of myself that I couldn't believe how much I had improved!

So I started to do more challenging things, I went all the way up, and then I decide it that I was enough experienced so I try to jump... big mistake I land horrible in my neck and shoulder!

I didn't thought that I was that bad cuz I was able to stand up and keep doing it! But today gosh I'm in my pain.. I think I pull something, I need to go to the doctor asap!

hopefully tomorrow I will be better!!

SUNSHINE DAY!!

2010-02-23T19:16:00.003-07:00

Today, nothing especially seems to happen.. I'm happy and there only one reason why there were SUNSHINE!!

I'm really amazed of how a little bit of sunshine can affect on me and change my mood so drastically. Believe it or not I perform much better when I feel the sunshine in my face!!

I just wanna say thank you sunshine for making my day so great!!

Bright and not so bright sides of my life!

2010-02-21T20:33:00.005-07:00

I haven't blog in a while, I had a lot to say I just do know how to say it or even start!

My parents are gone what means that I am not in my best mood... I'm not sad I just really miss them!
Love... lately it seems like I'm running in opposite direction to it. I know that I blogged several times about boys I like... and in some point I do like them! People here are very fickle, they dont pursue love.. I will really like to find someone and have that feeling of pursuit, that feeling that you wanna be with them no matter what.
In my vocabulary deception is becoming a common word in my love life! I dont want to find the love of my life yet, I just want to have an stable relationship, thats it!
I dont know whats wrong with me, this last week talking with other had became a hard task!
I dont want to talk, I dont want to communicate! I just want to be what I used to be.. JUST BE ME!!

Friends... Some of them just dissapointed me, but I miss them a lot! Before, it was so easy to make new friends but now even call someone a friend is hard! Sometimes I wish I could be in Ecuador, definitely my heart belongs there!

Dance... I danced not so good this week, I was feeling weird and let's be honest over this two last weeks I gained some weight! On the bright side, I'm going to audition this April! I started to run, this week I will start to diet, and focusing more in class!

Family... Finally I'm becoming an aunt. I'm so happy and excited! There are no words that can describe the joy of knowing that our family is getting bigger! On the not so bright side, my dad had some problems with his retirement, we are really worried. I'm optimistic I know everything will be better, we just need to be faithful, prayful and patient.

Facebook... I really hate you! I'm addicted to you thou

Anabelle (my cute dog).. I love you! you are the best, I love how affectionate you are, I love when you ask me for permission to get into my bed, I love when you chase rocks... YOU ROCK MY WORLD!

The day that i got 2 ducks (22)... turning 22 years old

2010-02-15T18:18:00.001-07:00

Omg!! my b-day was so fun!
Instead of celebrating it on saturday, I decided to do it on friday (you know i didnt want to mess up with my friends valentines day dates or seeing all those chessy couples around)
We went dinner to TGI fridays, dancing and we ended up in Dallin's place!
Dinner was great!

Later we try to go dancing but you know parties in here can be lame most of the time! However, I shake the bootay for a while... then we went to my friend apt we played dare or truth *verdad o desafio* it was way fun!!

I'm really grateful for this new year of life!!

HAPPY B-DAY TO ME!!

Sticky notes!

2010-02-09T22:51:00.005-07:00

Dear medicine:

I hate you! Your side effects are making my skin itchy and looking weird. I will keep giving you a chance so you better start behaving

Dear BYU:

I love you! I just hate when I got so busy and I get behind! and by the way thanks for the new job

Dear accounts payable department:

I hate when we have a check with tons of invoices on it! but I still like you a LOT

Dear birthday:

You are coming! I'm excited

Dear Valentine's day:

You bring me so many memories... This year I might hate you but it doesn't mean that we can start all over again next year!

Dear spanish boy:

I just barely know you, I might like you but it is too soon to say that but I'm attracted to you. Your accent is so sexy

Always Yours,

Laura!

Giveaway!

2010-02-04T20:25:00.003-07:00

Who doesn't love free stuff! I DO!!

enter here

You will love what Christa is giving away

Horray for giveaways!!

VIVA LE FREE STUFF!!

First upside down that ends good

2010-02-04T12:58:00.005-07:00

Have you ever feel upside down?? Yesterday, that was how I felt!
My morning was O.K... you know work, filing, checks, count them down, fill the check log, signatures blah blah blah
My Afternoon, I started to melt down! HORRIBLE
My Night, I was with my friend Cacey, he cheer me up a lot.
By now I can consider him one of my besties! He is really cool!
Then suddenly in the library I made tons of friends, and even someone ask me out!
I pondered about my future what I wanna be??!
I have always wanted to make a difference, help others
so by now I would say I have two opt

public health
public relationships

The funny part is both had the word public on them, so it lead me to realization that I love to be in public, I love to be in touch with people!

Sunny and suddenly I started to melt down

2010-02-03T19:04:00.008-07:00

The day started pretty good.. but suddenly without an specific reason I started to melt down!
All the positivism that I'm having lately just disappeared! I felt weird.. til yesterday I was feeling great about turning 22 but til i talked with my friend, when I told her
I'm turning the big two ducks (22)
she just told me ooooh but you don't look like that age!
( what the freak she mean by that)
then I remembered my past b-day!
It was so lovely so nice, i have him.
don't take me wrong I don't want him back
I'm totally over it!
I just miss having someone there!

This are the kinda of days where I would love to be back in high school !
everything was so much easier and simple
my friends celebrated with my b-day as a national holiday
I had multiple parties just cuz we wanted to skip class
(obviously they love me too)

Now, I just can say that at least I'm gonna have my parents here celebrating my b-day with me!
It always nice to count on them no matter what!

Tomorrow will be a new day so I hopefully I will be back with my positive attitude!

Good nite!

My B-day is coming WHAT???

2010-02-02T13:03:00.006-07:00

Today we had a meeting at work, we were talking about office stuff!
Out of the blue someone said: Happy B-day Margaret!! (Margaret is my boss and today was her b-day),
then the girl who I work with said: Laura's b-day is next week too!!
Then I realized, next week I will be 22!
UNBELIEVABLE
Next week is my B-DAY!
I see it coming
but
for being
HONEST
NOT THAT FAST
anyways.. I'm excited this year so far has started so good!
so getting old it is just part of live and for being sincere
it has benefits and I'm feeling good about it

I GOTTA A FEELING THAT MY B-DAY WILL BE A GOOD B-DAY!! *lol*

Early february and I feel is spring already!

2010-02-02T12:44:00.004-07:00

Waking up early for work is paying me back!

In my way to the bus stop.. my eyes couldn't believe what I was seeing, it was 7:20 am and you could see the sunrise.. there is not doubt the spring is coming faster than i thought!!
Gray days are past. I feel so good, it looks so pretty and I can't wait to have warmer days!

I love you, FEBRUARY!

2010-02-01T17:12:00.003-07:00

February has started, this means..

MY B-DAY IS COMING (counting down 12 days)

Valentine's Day

Spring is aproaching quickly

Carnaval.. I wish I could be home cuz it was so much fun.. I miss those crazy times playing carnaval in high school

February has always make me giggle.. it is a shortest month of the year but for me it is the funniest, coolest and delicious month!

HAPPY FEB!!

Vete a buscar lo que te haga feliz!!

2010-01-31T21:21:00.002-07:00

For those who speak spanish.. I want to share with you this...

I thought it was lovely, cheerful and so true!!

Tremendous delicious week-end!!

2010-01-31T19:49:00.006-07:00

Gosh, this weekend was so much fun !!

Friday:

I met this guy and his wife! For those who arent familiar with college football (like me). This is Lavell Edwards a legend in BYU football, and I met him this friday. I even chilled in his house with some kids!

We had a dessert contest and he and his wifey were the judges *we all tide*. It was way fun.. my dessert wasnt that great probably we would end up in last place *joaquim faults he left the ice cream outside and it was melted haha* Besides, our little melting accident *lol*. We had fun, I think that was a really creative date! (it was outside of the typical byu dates).

After that we played cards, rockband and ate our desserts.

Then, I went dancing with Scott and Cacey... Way fun!! I like those kids a lot.... they are fun to be around!

Saturday:

Me and my family went to the sundance festival. We had not seen anyone famous but we had a blast! We ate caramel apple, pizza, we played in the snow, took pics, laughed our heads off.. I LOVE THEM!!! (I will post pics later)

I wish we could do this more often.. but since my parents lived in Ecuador this kind of gathering happens once a year.. but I'm so grateful for all the good times we had, have and we are having..!!

I saw the guy that I like or I used to like not sure yet!

Sunday:

We ate yummy homemade chicken soup (my fav), a long nap with my parents, taught kids!

HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT WEEKEND TOO!!

MONDAY SEE YOU TOMORROW!!

Insights of my Artistic creative Dancing day

2010-01-28T16:37:00.009-07:00

This is me back in 2007.... by that time my life was all about dance 24/7.. I miss those days where I danced for hours. I realized that dancing makes me happy, feel alive, excited, and I get disconected to the world for a while.

Today I enjoyed my dance class it remainded me all my good times with my friends in my dance institute, all the crying, laughs, all the memories ( the good ones and the bad ones).

I'm making a coreography with my friend Alex just for fun!!

I want to be called dancer again.. but this will need work, preparation ,sacrifice and diet (mmm diet :S).

I will do it and by April I will be ready for the Dance Emsamble's auditions.

Viva la Dance!!

It was a long day............

2010-01-27T22:51:00.002-07:00

IM TIRED!

IM SORE!

BUT

I'M HAPPY

good thing tomorrow is thursday!

GOOD NITE :)

I want to explore beyond the dock of the bay

2010-01-26T13:11:00.004-07:00

Today, so far has been a pretty nice day.. it was snowy that kinda bother me.. i was wearing flats and I got all wet! I was late to work .. but besides that everything looks like this is going to be a good day! I ate pizza for free, I'm feeling more inspiring to dance, I still have to write about myself and who I am for my class ..

I will love to be in a warm and quiet place, exploring beyond the dock.. but I cant complain life is treating me well enough and so far january and me are having a healthy love relationship..
I just want to say

I LOVE YOU LIFE

From now on...

2010-01-25T22:53:00.005-07:00

Its official I dont have to work on nights anymore YEAHHH!! I got home today around 7:30 and it was the best feeling ever!

I'm so excited this semester.. that nothing seems to bother me lately!! This past couple weeks I have seen guys that I dated .. and it is so weird cuz they all are married now!!

Before that would bother a little bit, I felt like I wasn't progressing that I was stuck in the same place but now I'm so happy to be single. I can still do somethings in my own.. dont take me wrong it is not that i dont want to get married cuz I will love to have a family.... It is not the right time for me.. So now it is time to prepare and be ready cuz the special one can be in his way or maybe not...

YOU KNOW WHAT??

IM HAPPY WITH MYSELF

So from now on... ITS TIME TO ENJOY MY LIFE

I WILL CROSS THE DEEP OCEAN FOR YOU!!

2010-01-24T23:00:00.008-07:00

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, whoever you are... I'm waiting for you, we haven't met yet but I'm sure you are somewhere out there!!

I will make you smile

I will be your friend

I will be your support

I will be your personal cheerleader

I will travel around the world with you

I will make pretty babies with you

I will laugh my head off with you

I will be patient *most of the time*

I will make you happy

I will be head over heels over you

I will wait for you

I will get old with you

I will dance with you

I will kiss you like crazy

I will cook for you

I will do nice things to you

I will grow and become more mature with you

I will learn with you

I will protect you

I will try to never make you cry

I will give you my best

I will work hard for us

I will tell you that I love you everyday

I will be loyal to you

I will take care of you

I will never you leave you

I will walk aside you

I will hug you

I will believe in you

I will take care of our kids

I will have fun with you

I will make our house a home

I will wake up next you

I will help you

I will cheer you up in your cloudy days

I will be your lover

I will spoon you

I will sing to you

I will hold your hand

I will never give up on us

I will try not to get mad with you

I will cross the deep ocean for you

and all because I WILL BE YOURS and YOU'LL BE MINE!

THIS IS MY PROMISE TO YOU!!

I just haven't meet you yet!

Lovely Friday!!

2010-01-22T15:38:00.005-07:00

The week couldn't finished better.. I started in my new job today and I'm already in love with it. Finally, I'm able to have Friday nights off.. and thats the best feeling in the world plus I will have more time for studying!!

I'm making a lot of plans there so many things I wanna do.. Hip hops club, salsa club, pilates, yoga, study french on my own.. IM EXCITED and how i feel can be defined in three simple words

I AM HAPPY

I learned so much lately, I feel like I acting more like a young responsible adult. That make me feel soooooooooooo good!!

I'm trying to take school, work and all my duties one week at the time.. something that I'm gonna work this weekend is in planning my week so wish me luck cuz you know me I get easy distracted!

The to do list for this weekend is:

Work on my paper
Study for my Spanish test
Do an interview
Dinner with friends
Time with family
Teach my kids
Planning my week

HAVE AN AWESOME WEEKEND!

Good start

2010-01-19T16:42:00.006-07:00

I'm so freaking happy .. I learned a valuable lesson today about...

PATIENCE, HOPE, FAITH AND PRAY.

I applied to a job a couple weeks ago and for a moment i thought that I had it in my pocket, I thought she will call me tomorrow (cuz thats what she said)...
Next day... the phone rang i was excited .. a bunch of people call me that day.. but not the lady!!
I was heart broken, my mom tried to cheer me up but I could stop thinking about that..
Deep inside i thought they might call me later, maybe she got busy, or she didn't have time.. until i reached the point i knew that i didn't get the job..
My mom encouraged me to keep praying, I had my doubts but I did it.. and it worked because they called me TODAY... I'm starting on Thursday!! Life couldn't get any better

I'm so grateful!!

The best part is ...
I DON'T HAVE TO WORK ON NIGHTS YEAHHHH!!

Friday, Viernes, Vendredi... Le week-end!!!

2010-01-15T11:55:00.003-07:00

Finally ITS FRIDAY!!! I dont have specific plans for this weekend but I'm sure it will be way fun (it will be 3 days weekend, and 3 it always better than 2, right?)

What i am sure is this weekend will include time with my family!! and that thrill me!!

I LOVE THEM SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!

I'm gonna miss my momma so bad when she leaves, she is the best spooning partner ever!! I realize that my family is the greatest thing I ever had, have or I will have!!

HAVE AN AMAZING WEEKEND!!

Hope for Haiti

2010-01-15T11:40:00.005-07:00

This week was soooooooo long... finally friday its here and this will be a 3 day weekend thanks to this amazing guy who made history!!. This week was bitter sweet....
I was really sad about what happen in Haiti!! that make me realize how blessed I am and I need to be more thankful for what I have!! All the week I had been thinking what can I do.. and this quote came to my mind..

" I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do". ~Edward Everett Hale

I decide to create Hope for Haiti, this wont change the situation of hundrends of haitians but at least I decide to do something. God bless this humble people, they are in my prays!!

you can make donations at http://www.yele.org/ or http://www.unicef.org/!!

New start.. and a new beginning

2010-01-08T17:01:00.005-07:00

This new year just started.. for being honest this first week was kinda crappy BUT...
Never it is too late to change and start all over again...
So here are my resolutions for this year!! (I know I should post them a week ago.. it is better do it late than never ..right?)

Run a 5k this year
Learn how to knit
I'm not going to say that I lose certain number of pounds but I comprise myself to work out more
Dance... go to many auditions as I can.
Use my credit card wisely.. and get out of debt
Travel to a place that I haven't been yet
Keep a journal
Make something nice and meaningful for someone.. (at least once a month)
Go to everysingle class that I am enrolled
Don't turn off the alarm unless I am really awake (no more pretending that I have extra 5 min unless I actually have those extra min)
Find a new job
Dont be afraid to try new food, activities or clothes.
Prepare my primary lesson before sunday
Read a book per month
Have a camera with me most of the time
Get my drivers license
Go to concerts
Walk my dog every morning!

Now it is public so I better wont mess up with my resolutions.. Im planning to stick to them!! Little changes make a huge difference..

I think in terms of the day's resolutions, not the year's. ~Henry Moore

In other words this is how I feel today....

2010-01-08T16:30:00.009-07:00

Happy...

Motivated..

Talented........

Bubbly..................

Inspired........................

In the clouds.......................

Smart.........................................

Positive..........................................

Today I went to my modern dance class..

The teacher remained me how talented I am

She says she will bug me if I decide to stay in her class (you know dance teachers are...

.when they say they will bug you.. it is cuz you have something there).

She suggested me to go to a higher level class.

Maybe .. for a second I forgot who I am and of what I am capable!I'm glad that she remained me

that I have something special..

The feeling of inadequacy was bugging me lately.. (I was feeling not smart enough and I thought this semester is wayyyyyy tooooooooo much for me) but I know I can do it!I better start believing in my potencial!! (for my own sake)

Happy weekend people!!!

100 .. Its always a good number

2010-01-06T11:02:00.008-07:00

I guess whatever maturity is there may be there because I've been keeping a journal forever. In high school my friends would make fun of me - you're doing your man diary again. So I was always trying to translate experience into words.
Anthony Doerr

Today, I'm celebrating my 100 post!!
(I make it sounds like it my b-day or my anniversary but this is important to me, so u better like lol)

I can't believe that I went through all those crazy, funny, happy,not so funny and not so happy stories!

Reading my stories make me realize that:

Life is about....
making memories and living on the edge!!
Hanging up there and not giving up
Dancing
True love and knowing that isn't just part of fairy tales.. ITS REAL!
Families are not just part of us.. they must be everything to us!
Making good friends and keep them close to you
Dreaming
Hoping
Loving someone,or something!
Being passionate
Love is magic.. just let it happen!
Enjoying little moments and forgetting the big tragedies
Dealing with hard times and overcoming them
Feeling good about yourself
Being yourself

LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS EASY BUT AT LEAST THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE YOU SMILE JUST LOOK CAREFULLY AROUND YOU....
IT COULD BE TALKING WITH YOUR MOM, A HANDSOME BOY SMILING AT YOU, A GOOD SONG, A CHILD MEMORY, A SINCERE HUG, A CUTE DOG, YOUR DREAMS, SWINGING ON A SWING ... JUST TAKE A MOMENT BREATH AND IF YOU DON'T FIND ANYTHING AT LEAST YOU ARE STILL ALIVE AND THAT SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN BE HAPPY FOR!

Enjoy your DAY!!

Traditions!

2010-01-05T11:19:00.002-07:00

In Ecuador, Año Viejo is a tradition in which on December 31 people construct effigies made from old clothes, crumpled newspaper and homemade masks, and then burn them up. This symbolically burns up the regrets of the old year and ushers in the hopes of the new one.

After this, Im so ready for 2010!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

New Year

2010-01-05T11:08:00.003-07:00

We had a really nice New year's eve.. We ate ridiculous amounts of food! We all dressed up, and we were looking our best... It was cool to have my parents here, their presence made it so special and in someway I felt like I was in home...

Recap 2009

2010-01-05T10:26:00.005-07:00

I'm so grateful.. this past year has been interesting to me! I had some up and downs but overall I had a good time! I learned a lot, I grew up a lot, I'm more aware of what i want in my life or at least what I really don't want..
So this are the 12 of best memories of this year:

I fell in love this year... even that things did work, I learn a lot about what I'm looking for in a guy.
I had a great b-day!! I like all the surprises and finally I turned 21!!
I grew up a lot.. I'm not a kid anymore... I'm a grow up lady!!
I struggle with school, relationship, etc.. but there were always someone there for me... either my family, a friend! God never left me alone this year!
I got to see brother!! It was a lovely summer !! I understood that true love never fade!
My cousin came to visit me.. It was a blast, having her with me remained me that happiness come from ourselves, and we can be happy no matter what we are facing!
I started this blog! I love to write my stories, my feelings, my adventures! Hopefully someday my kids will read it with me and we all will laugh together.
I went to Ecuador during the summer! As always being in home is wonderful, definitely i belong there..
I started my dream's list.. I'm planning to become true couple of those this year...
I got my patriarchal blessing.. I feel so loved, special and blessed.. Words can express how grateful I am for all I have and for who I am.
We spent Christmas with my parents!!! :)
I realized that no matter true friends are always there... I'm really thankful for all the friends that I have here.. and the friends that I have at home!

My bonus memory:

My testimony of the church grew a lot this year! I love to be connect to something greater that myself, something that for me is eternal and essential..

2009 thanks for all you did with me!! I learned a lot from you but it about time to move on and look forward so 2010 here we are!!

I become a christmas's rockstar!

2009-12-27T23:07:00.003-07:00

Christmas with family was great! It was great to remember how much fun and special can be spending the holidays with the ones that loves you no matter what.

We remembered the light of Christ in our lives and how much we are bless!

We ate a lot of great food! I think since my mommy is here I gained at least 5 pounds (maybe more :S). Horray for my mom's cooking skills! Having real food is AWESOME!

My parents got me a rockband for Christmas.. Im so excited cuz thats what i wanted mmm wait what i really wanted was spending christmas with my PARENTS so the rockband was just a bonus but Im happy for that too!

HOPE YOU HAD GREAT CHRISTMAS CUZ MINE ROCKED!

Crazy love

2009-12-20T00:46:00.003-07:00

My parents are here!!! Can life get any better? I don't think so!!!

I have new news... After hanging out with Wes the whole semester I just realize that things between him and me wouldn't never work.. I was good thou cuz for the first time ever I give myself time to know a person rather than rushing things up! I'm still going out with Justin (Jj).. We went this friday to the premier of Avatar. It was such a great movie probably it was the best movie of the year! I like to hang out with him but I'm not sure if there is just a physical attraction or something more than that!

I dont know if I'm crazy lover girl but I like someone else too.. His name can't be reveled yet lol. What I can tell you is that .. he is hot haha. It is weird cuz he is not my type at all.. he is blondie, white skin, green eyes.. you know a classic american guy but there is something that attracts me!

It is funny to me how crazy love can be

Updates and goodbyes!

2009-12-13T01:37:00.008-07:00

This three weeks flew so fast.. my cousin is already gone but we have a blast together!! I love her so much that words can express how much i love her! It was sad saying goodbye, hopefully she will be back (deep inside I know she will be back sooner that I think)..

We had some many adventures this three last weeks: we went ice skating for the first time, we ate ridiculous amounts of food, we had tons of dates, we laughed so hard til our tummies hurt, we played guitar hero and we got addicted to it, we went to the movies, we talked about things that matters in life, we went to the Christmas devotional, we gambled in Vegas, We had a bday party,. we had funny conversations in the hot tub, tons of fun and tons of pics that prove it...

in summary we had a BLAST

I got new friends with her and guess what I like someone, he is blond, 25 years old, I spilled water on him (clumsy me), but I am not sure if he likes me.. I guess I have to figure out that!

LIFE IS GOOD

MY PARENTS WILL GET HERE ON WEDNESDAY I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM!!

Choose today!!

2009-12-07T17:54:00.000-07:00

I love this message, I love my faith!!

The joy of the season!!

2009-12-07T15:19:00.006-07:00

This weekend was so much fun..!! On friday, I didn't work instead I went to the movies with JJ, his friend, my cousin, Abril and her boyfriend!! We got late to the movie so probably that was the shortest movie I have ever seen.. After that we went to my place and we watch Marley and me. I love it and after that I love my cute "little" dog even more.
Me and Jj are still hanging out so are dont know what going on there! Sometimes I think we make dating so hard.. it should be like you like someone, he likes you, you start dating if things work you go to the next level if not you just leave it like that....
On saturday, We went ice skating (my first time). I was kinda of scared.. it was so much fun and there is no doubt the winter is here!
On sunday, We woke up and everything was cover by snow.. the view outside my window was gorgeous...We went to the Christmas Devotional.. it was inspiring, upliting, amazing and it remained me the true meaning of Christmas.. this season is all about the savoir, about love, families, forgive and be forgiven...
I'm so happy that my parents are coming.. I'm sure this Christmas will be memorable!

Hope you had a great weekend too!!

Happy winter!!

What I like to call happiness

2009-12-02T09:46:00.002-07:00

Since my cousin got here I didnt have that much of time for blogging. We are having so much fun together.. I´m laughing all the time and that make me feel so good!!
So far we are having so many adventunres like the day we when to the park and we took silly pics...
our late night adventures
the day that i lose my phone, our romances, our loud conversations in the library with friends, cleaning the room for hours and a messy room after 2 mins, VEGAS... and so much more!!

I just can say I love my family!!

Reunion

2009-11-20T14:01:00.003-07:00

Tonite I will get to see this beauty girl.. Im so happy and excited and I have seen her in years!! I love her so much, we grew up together! I always felt that I had to be an example to her and her sister.. We are more like cousins we are sister... I'm gonna take care of her and make her have three wonderful weeks!!

happy happy weekend!

Dreams

2009-11-20T13:24:00.002-07:00

Life needs to have a direction that will lead us to our destiny.. but what is our destiny?? Without a doubt I will say our dreams.. My realization make me think what my dreams are, where i wanna go. Lately I am in a "conform zone" I don't want to take risks and it is just for one reason: the fear of suffering..“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.”
So I decide to list my dreams.. the first step to achieve your dreams.. is knowing them if you dont know them you will be lost always wandering what is your personal story or what is your purpose in your life! No matter how simple or complex your dream are... “When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
My dreams are:
1. Getting a career in BYU..
2. Going to Paris
3. Learning french
4. Having daughters
5. Dancing
6. Writing a book
7. Finding true love
8. Being a good student
9. Serve others
10. Having a shop with my mom
11. Getting married
12. Become a dancer
13. Be virtuous
14. Be an influence in this world
15. Change my life and by that changing the life of others.. change the world
16. Have honor
17. Surfing
18. Living in the beach
19. Going to south America before I get married
20. Be happy
21. Having a baby boy
22. Be a doctor
22. Be a good mom
23. Design clothes
24. Learn to knit and sew
25. Be honest with myself
26. Don't be afraid to changes
27. Going to Africa with my dad
28. Taking pictures around the world
29. Have enough money to help others
30. Adopt a child
31. Climb a mountain
32. Run a 5k
33. Live in at least 5 different countries
34. Own a house that will be my home
35. Getting old with my eternal companion
36. Having nephews and nices
37. Make a family tradition..
38. Having always a close relationship with GOD

I will keep updating my list by so far this are my dreams..
This is my destiny

Not bad for a wednesday!!

2009-11-18T23:55:00.005-07:00

I dunno whats going on with Wes... he has been acting weird lately (to be more specific since we kissed) he is still texting me and inviting me to come over to his place!
Who knows what he is thinking... he is not very expressive!
Tonight me and Justin went to the Jazz game we beat the raptors... i was fun~~ Justin is the guy who i met in Halloween.. since then we had hung out every week! Today he held my hand, we walked around downtown salt lake.. my heart was beating fast i was nervous and I don't know if it was obvious or not.. i try to hide it thou!
He held my hand all the way back to Provo.. we ate at Sonic
He offered me gum... deep inside i thought maybe he will kiss me but it was just a thought
He walked me to the door.. he hug me and i don't know how he kissed me in front of my door! It was sweet.. when i got home I had a big smile.. not working today was worthy!
I might like him but I don't wanna have big expectations about me and him.. but it is nice to be nervous and feel butterflies in my stomach again!

Special weekend.. full of blessings!

2009-11-16T13:35:00.004-07:00

This weekend i got my patriarchal blessing! It was soooooooooooooooooo special! I could felt how blessed I am and how much God loves me!
I can't believe all the promises he has for me, he is so merciful and I can tell he loves me!
Life is good when you know that there is a purpose in life..and dreams can come true!
I'm reading The Alchemist!! it is a wonderful book and i can't stop reading it highly recommended it!!

HAVE A LOVELY WEEK!!

I'm going to a jazz game this Wednesday.. I'm way excited!!

Secret confession!

2009-11-14T23:37:00.007-07:00

I have to tell you... he kissed me tonite and I dont know how to feel!!
It was nice but i dont know???
I like it but i feel that something was missing....
I guess I have to give it some time!
Next week I'm going out with Justin. He is cool and we might go to a Jazz game!

Friday.. just chilling

2009-11-13T21:39:00.003-07:00

I didn't have to work tonite... I had been in a weird mood this two last days! I need to breath, pray, trust more in my self and don't let discourage take part of me! I was reading the scriptures and that make me feel much better.. Finally, I understood what HOPE is about.. I believe in hope, I believe in miracles, I believe in faith, I believe in charity, I believe in my self I believed in Jesus Christ! I have high and confident expectations that my future will be brighter if I believe!

On the other hand, my plans for this weekend are:

Taking pics of my mom's headbands and post them in this cute blog I made for sweet momma!
Going out with Wes.. Im kinda of getting tired of going out with him.. he is not expressive at all!!
Do homework
Preparing my primary class
Finally receiving my patriarchal blessing on Sunday
I'm craving for cake so probably I will end up baking one

So that's my weekend in 6 sentences..

HAPPY WEEKEND!

Monday beats thursday!

2009-11-12T14:35:00.005-07:00

I'm so frustrated.. today is one of those days that everything seems to be so wrong! I lost my wallet and if I don't find it i will be in BIG troubles! My i pod is acting weird! I don't want to do anything!
Life is not good today!! I have to calm down and remember that days of frustration and sorrow are necessary. If we don't have them we will never know the feeling of joy and happiness.. so I'm grateful for days like this.. I'm still alive and tomorrow will be better day!
I'm just moody now!!

Tuesdays always beat Mondays

2009-11-10T16:07:00.010-07:00

Today i went to my orientation for the volunteering at the hospital.. people seems to be really nice there.. they took me a pic and i look stunning lol but seriously it was a really good picture.. this is the kind of pic that u don't mind to show everyone!
I walked around downtown the colors, the weather, the wind everything make me feel so good!
I had Salvadorian food for lunch! it was yummy!
I saw two cute guys on the bus!! I'm wearing a cute outfit and i talk with my mom

What else can i ask?? It was a lovely tuesday

Life lesson 1

2009-11-09T16:13:00.006-07:00

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow"

This weekend was weird, don't take me wrong it was good just a little bit emotional! I went to the bijou market.. they have really cool stuff! I got inspired I'm gonna start selling my mom jewelry and headbands on Etsy.. She is so talented I'm proud of her!
On saturday I watched a movie with Wes dont know exactly what is going on there.. we haven't kiss but he seems to like me a lot he calls me all the time!
I was thinking on sunday in Daniel.. I saw some pictures on facebook and he look cute on most of them! I still kinda of missing him. I know i shouldn't do this but it was out of my control.. I cried just a little bit but I cried.
Then i found this quote and it makes me feel much better.. i have to stop worrying about the mistakes of the past, i did it and now it is time to let it go and just take the best of it. The present is a gift that why we call it present.. just live for today and hope for tomorrow things will be much better the next day !!

"The principle of living greatly included the capacity to face trouble with courage, disappointment with cheerfulness, and trial with humility". Thomas S. Monson

HAVE AN AWESOME WEEK!

Living for others thats the key

2009-11-09T10:50:00.002-07:00

I'm starting a new week.. I am excited today I got an email saying that I can start the volunteering in the hospital!
I really want to help others or feel that I am doing something for others!

"Only a life lived for others is worthy living"

I totally agree with this Einstein's quote.. service is the key of a happy life

Viva le week-end!!

2009-11-06T13:04:00.009-07:00

I love Fridays! It means the end of the week time to rest and have fun! Today I started with the right foot.. a little baby was flirting with me on the bus he was cute and he made me smile, Wes is always waiting for me after class ( he used to run to his next class) , I had a wrap for lunch, and I just feel happy there is no reason why but I do feel good (maybe cuz its friday)!!

So my plans for this weekend are:

Hitting up the bijou market and a flea market

Going to a swing dance

Getting my patriarchal blessing (I'm so exciting =D I was waiting for this and finally tomorrow is the day)

Life is good!!

Dateless life is over

2009-11-05T22:34:00.009-07:00

Remember this!! This might sound funny but I'm officially back to the market.. After that email I felt so good, it is not that I don't feel anything for him but I finally understood that it is over. I'm still going out with Wes, things are going slow with him. We see each other often and he calsl me everyday sometimes twice or three times a day! He hasn't try to kiss me, I feel that he really wants to know me rather than just playing around.

Tonight I had a date with a guy that I meet in a Halloween party. He suppose to come to pick me up at sevenish what for me was around 7:30 but obviously for him was at 7:00pm. We almost canceled the date but at the end he pick me up at BYU. I was wearing a cute outfit but my make up by that time was history.

He was nice he asked me if I wanna stop by my apt. I say yes so I dropped my bag and putted some make up. I was ready! We ate Hawaiian food and gelato ( it was perfect i was craving for some good gelato).

He walked me to my door, he hugged me honestly it was weird (maybe I wasn't used to that anymore. I didn't date at all for 4 months and I dated Daniel for 6 months..)

It was a good day!! I'm so happy that finally I'm moving on!

pd: My cousin from Spain is coming to visit me at the end of this month.. Im way excited!
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Second chances!!

2009-11-03T16:35:00.011-07:00

I totally agree with this.. second chances should be a human right! As humans we always make mistakes! Sometimes giving ourselves a second chance is hard because we think we don't deserve them. We think that we deserve what we are living! But I tell myself and everybody out there.. WE DESERVE SECOND CHANCES! We should never give up in ourselves! We should keep trying and trying! For me is kind of hard saying this, lately i felt that I didn't deserve anything but I do!! I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be loved and love others.. I have the control in my life. One of the most amazing things that God has giving me is the opportunity of making my own destiny! I want to be better and make him proud of me! It is not easy cuz there is always things distracting me but I want to make my world and the world of others a place better!

People and to myself give ourselves:

A SECOND CHANCE, A THIRD CHANCE, A FOURTH CHANCE OR WHICH EVER CHANCES WE NEED! WE DESERVE THEM.. DON'T GIVE UP AND TRUST IN OURSELVES!

I just found this quote from president Monson. This confirms what I said about second chances.. I love my faith

"On occasion we need to make a second effort - and a third effort, and a fourth effort, and as many degrees of effort as may be required to accomplish what we strive to achieve".

HEADBANDS!

2009-11-03T16:06:00.001-07:00

I found this website they have the cutest headbands ever! check it out!! You will find something cute!

Monday joy

2009-11-02T22:31:00.007-07:00

I got sick or at least i think I'm sick!! Wes texted me this morning wondering why i didnt go to class he is sweet ( too innocent sometimes) but after all he has been pretty nice!! We haven't kiss yet.. I'm happy that we are taking sometime.. it is always good to know a person first before you get involved with them! I had a yummy lunch and a nice walk it was sunny the weather was great.. I feel gorgeous as I was walking on the street!
Today we celebrated "dia de los muertos" in Ecuador. I miss so bad "la colada morada y guaguas de pan"
Wes came to visit me he wants to make sure that I was feeling better.

COLADA MORADA Y GUAGUAS DE PAN

Halloween weekend

2009-11-02T12:30:00.007-07:00

This weekend was fun!!
I had to work on friday night (that sucked) anyways I need the money and we dressed up for work!
Work didn't mess up my friday tho. On Friday afternoon Wes and me went to play bowling and he made dinner for us. He took me to work. After work he texted me and we went to his apt and we watched a movie!
On saturday I was in a weird mood!! I didn't want to do anything but as soon as I got dressed up everything change.. I WAS READY TO PARTY ALL NITE!!

I danced all night long!! We ended up in Denny's talking and laughing.. remember this so I party with her all nite, she is really nice!! I'm so glad that he didn't keep texting me!

On sunday, I woke up to go to church. It is always nice to spend my sunday morning with kids I love them!! I talked with my mom I love her so much!! we always laugh and she always make me feel the smartest and prettiest girl in this world.
Later that night Wes came and picked me up! We watch the fireside together! It was nice I like his hugs (you know me I'm a hugger)

HOPE U HAD A LOVELY WEEKEND TOO!!

Perpetual Paris

2009-10-30T13:07:00.003-06:00

I've being obsessed with Paris my whole life! I always dream about it! France seems to be such a cool place and I can't wait to be there someday!
I fought this cute amazing french calendar! I'm totally buying this!!

Viva la France!

U gotta love autumn!

2009-10-30T12:37:00.007-06:00

October has become officially one of my favorite months of the year!
i am to list things that make me happy this October:
so here it goes...
1. Fall clothes.. I LOVE WEAR BOOTS AND COATS people look pretty on them!
2. Hot drinks.. It feels so good to have something warm when it is cold outside
3. It is still sunny.. even it is cold you can get some sunshine
4. Fall colors.. i love them! They are so classy and vintage
5. He left.. finally he is not in my life anymore I decide to let the memories go and be me. At the end of the day if I feel good with myself, people will notice and they will love me for who I am.
6. Magic jack entered in my life.. now i can call my mommy whenever I want =)
7. I had several dates with some cool guys... still waiting for the right one
8. Halloween.. it is one of my favorite American holidays.. I love to play dressing up!!
9. I discovered the joy of blogging... it feels so good to be able to express myself, read my crazy stories, and "we'll collect the moments one by one. i guess that's how the future's done"- Feist.
10. Pumpkins, Cinnamon, brown sugar, apple... i love fall fragrance!!
11. Red and gold trees
12. The feeling that Christmas is getting closer!!

I LOVE AUTUMN
HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Finally he is gone! and this world needs more LOVE!!

2009-10-29T13:49:00.008-06:00

I couldn't call him. Don't blame me, it was hard! I decided that an email will be enough.
I got to the point that I'm sick of this situation so I told him everything that i feel in that email. He didn't reply and honestly I was expecting an email back!

I feel so much better now

Finally, I figure out the only way that I could get rid of those feelings is telling him them even if he doesn't care anymore. I do care and love is something that should be never hidden.
So if u love someone tell them, let them know.. After all, you will do your part and I promise you will feel better (cuz on my own experience i felt better).. what they do after it is up to them but at least u did something. This world needs more love!! Do something to full your life with that amazing feeling called LOVE you won't regret it.

Divorzio All'Italiana

2009-10-28T16:00:00.005-06:00

We watched this movie in my french and italian cinema. I love it and I laughed hard. You can see it on youtube!!

There is always reasons to be happy

2009-10-28T15:53:00.008-06:00

Things that make me happy today:
1. His text message this morning
2. He offered me a jacket
3. Have time to read during my chem class..
4. Realize once more that everything that is worthy needs sacrifice
5. Learn how to become one
6. Laugh in my french and italian cinema class... my teacher is funny.. this is his quote for today: "You are invited to come to my house and eat donuts but if you have to come to my house on Halloween night how lame is your life haha"
7. Thinking in gelato
8. Talking with my mom
9. Seeing friends that i didn't see for a while
10. Jack Johnson's video "Better Together" live in Paris